Nothing beats the feeling of having the right people around you. I can definitely say that I’m contented with whoever’s in my life right now. My smaller circle gives me warmth, I feel like I’m in the middle of them all and everybody got closer.
I feel like I’ve become less scared in showing affection to those who I care for besides my son. It took a long time for me to be this open again without the fear of being judged. I owe it to people who aren’t afraid to show their love for me without assuming anything or being demanding. I’ve never been happier about my choices on who deserve my affection, attention, friendship, love and loyalty.
I’m currently more excited about life, career and my future (as well as my son’s). I know that there were times when I’ve become doubtful and impatient (and I still kind of feel bad for being whiny three days before the “good news” came — I’ll tell you about it next time) but it’s true when they say that it’ll happen in life’s perfect timing — HIS perfect timing. I wouldn’t have been ready for it if it happened a few months ago and there would have been things and people (that I consider very special) that I would have missed if what I was praying for happened last year. I was even ready to move to QC with my son and about to enroll him in a new school moments before I received the good news that I’ve been waiting for for a looong time!
Let me share to you some excerpts from Steve Furtick’s preaching entitled the Danger of A Dream that slapped the hell out of me when I was feeling down, ignored and undeserving of good things just because I cannot wait for His perfect timing:
“If you look behind your life you will see very clearly that some of the things God did for you, some of the doors He opened for you, some of the ways He made for you and some of the opportunities that He granted for you were accidental from your perspective. God’s dream for you is bigger than your dream for you. Just because it doesn’t look shiny when you see it, it doesn’t mean it isn’t real. God said ‘You’ve got the right dream, you just need to see it differently.’ The fact of the matter is some of us are standing in the middle of our dream, but we can’t see it because it feels different than we thought it would when we first saw it.”